As i entered the store parking lot, I pull into a space beside a work van. As i get out of my jeep, i feel the eyes of a man on me. I smile and feel the need to say something, so i say Hi! I smile again and go into the store for something to drink. As i return to my car, he is still looking at me with a dumbfounded look on his face. It is warm and there is a light breeze. My window is down and I begin to work on some paper work. I feel the need to say something again, so i ask him, Are you working hard today, or hardly working? This breaks the tension and both the men in the van laugh and both tell me they worked really hard in the morning and are taking an extended lunch break. I smile and say, "that's what we all say." He again has a look on his face that i cant place. It is serious yet playful. He gets out to throw something away, and as he walks i look at him. He is cute, handsome and walks with authority. His head is shaved and he is very smooth with his motions. I am taken by him, my heart quickens. As he returns he stops and asks me what i do for a living and we have small talk. He then begins to become nervous and shakes as he asks me if i am married. I am not so i tell him i am not. He had been looking at my hand for a ring. He then asks me if he can call me sometime. I hand him my card, and say, only if he is a gentleman. He doesnt know what to say to that, so he shuffles his feet and says ok. He says goodbye and they pull away. I wonder if he will call since i said that he needs to be gentleman, but I tell myself I dont care because thats what i want. Three days go by, and i feel that he has lost my card, because he is a man. He does call and i tell him I thought he lost my number, and he tells me NO he put it safe and sound in his wallet the moment he got it. He asks me out for a drink. I get lost trying to find the restaurant, and as i drive by it he calls me to tell me he just saw me go by and to come back. I laugh and tell him NO, i decided not to come. THere is silence, and i tell him Im just kidding. As i pull into the parking lot he is standing there with his hands in his pockets waiting for me. He is looking very cute like that and I cant help but to smile. We order a beer and as we drink it, we talk about nothing at all, and everything. I make him laugh alot, and when he laughs he looks so relaxed and cute. We get into conversations with others seated next to us, and we are having a good time. I get up to go for a moment, and i look back at the bar as i go, and he is looking at me, with that same look he had at the store. A longing and deep sensitive look. I smile and he smiles back. When i return, he is talking with the man next to him, and they both stop as i return. I ask whats up and they both just smile. Then the gentleman next to him says, we were talking about your smile. He said if i had seen that smile that day, i would have been dumbfounded too. It is an infectious smile, that can warm the heart. THen he says to me, when you smiled at me that day, you relieved, stress, anger, frustration and fear from my life at that moment and i was completely dumbfounded. I had nothing i could say. It floored me. You caused me to become nervous and shakey. I thought back to other people whom have had a smile that i can remember and knew what he meant. I was very happy that i made someone feel that way, just by a warm smile. His hand went to my back and he gently rubbed it while he spoke. My smile spread from my face to my whole body and i moved closer to him. By the evenings end, I feel so warm and cozy inside and out. I held his hand in mine, touched his face, rubbed his back and smiled more than i have in months. when we left that evening, i was thanked by the other gentleman for making his day, and i was kissed passionalty by the man whom i met for those drinks. His kiss was so deep and warm, i felt nothing and everything at the same time. THe kisses lasted forever and the feelings were so deep and affectionate. I will always remember that feeling, as i gave myself to others. You recieve so much more back. He never called me again, no explinationa as to why. He did tell me that he was going through some difficult things in life. I have to assume he is doing just that. But to have touched that feeling inside of me and to another, was worth it. I hope that he calls me again at some point, because i know it would be good to get to know him better. Maybe he is trying to shield me from something in his life. I dont know and i dont care. It was the best date i had in a long long time.
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